Will my dad stop acting like a fucking bitch for one fucking time?

FML

Thank you so much for being there for me. I wouldn't have imagined what to do without you being my side. Although it hurts a tad, you made a way for me by making it go away. Who am I to question, who am I to ask for this. I just want to say, thank you so much. I really really appreciate it.

Been feeling empty these days. It's crazy, I know. Loneliness seeps through and you feel that you're at the lowest point of your life. Blame it on the hormones, I think. I know, I should count my blessings and all. In fact, I'm very thankful for where I am right now; just that reality punches you in the face sometimes.

There's a reward for being submissive. And there's always a price to pay for speaking up.

No, I'm not unhappy. I'm just feeling a little bit hollow inside. Sometimes I wonder, when will I start filling the empty space?

....can I?

My father can so be so flipping unreasonable sometimes. SIGH

I'm alone on a Saturday night :( And the fact that I'm stressing so much isn't much of a help either.

There are only 3 things that can me high :

1. Vodka and Bacardi

2. Good Trance Music

3. Saturdays

Well, its 4 items to be exact. I'm no longer that person who craved shopping anymore. My obsessions aren't that extreme. Maybe its temporal. Knowing me.

I sound so angry in this blog. I've said it previously. This place is my only place of refuge, where I can just vent my feelings freely.

Lets not wander any further.

Why are some people so judgemental? Just because I go clubbing, it doesn't mean that I spoil myself by drinking to the maximum and hook up with some random guys. I still stand firm on my beliefs. People say I'm horny because of that. People say I'm 'bad' because I enjoy clubbing. Honestly, what sense does it make for you to make such statement? The fact is that, I really love the surreal feeling. It's one of those rare occasions where I can fully indulge in. Its my little place of redemption. My main purpose of clubbing is to have a good time without worrying about reality. I enjoy the music a lot. To get so absorbed into it is a luxury. Music is a bridge where I can get myself detached from reality.

Is that really bad? I don't hook up randomly. Neither do I get myself involved in such inappropriate acts. Yet, why do people go around jumping into conclusions and start pointing fingers at me?

Right at this stage, I don't pretty much care. People can be hypocrites for all I care. It's not going to affect me. They can say all they want ;)

Aaaah. another angry post! Blehhhh. But there's a smiley lol haha

He's 23 and he acts like a bitch/prick all the time. For fuck's sake, when are you going to grow up? You think you're smart and all that shit, but you're just an idiot after all. I'm even embarrassed to call you my brother. Good grief.

I sincerely hope that you'll grow up and think like a proper 23 year old. Instead of an asshole who only knows how to cause problems and trouble for EVERYONE.

Be a man. Not a prick!

My brother can be a bloody prick, sometimes. No, its practically all the time. For all the insults he hurled at me, I'm gonna puke em on his face one day. And force him to swallow it.

Some lecturers are real fucking assholes. Like mine. I still have to put up with his fucked up attitude and all that shit for another half a year. FML