Frankly speaking, I am so fucking pissed off right now with Rosalynne. After Physics tuition, she left without a word. She was supposed to fetch me! I called her and this was her fucking reply :
A:Me; R:Rosalynne
A: Hey Ross! Aren't you suppose to fetch me back home as well?
R: Oh really? But now I'm following Yi Hua back
A: *so fucking pissed already* Why didn't you tell me earlier?
R: Oh. Sorry lor then but no choice you have to find your own transport back la
I just slammed the phone because my anger was already burning in me.
Look at her fucking irresponsible attitude! She fetches me back home almost every Thursday, after Physics tuition but today she followed Yi Hua back and she just left without a note to inform me. I am so bloody pissed because I called Mum and she said she was having an appointment with a customer from Singapore in Bangsar and so she asked me to call Bryan to fetch me back. But..... he was having his extra classes till 4pm in Subang Jaya and he can only reach at my teacher's house at approximately 5pm+. I had to wait outside despite the fucking heavy rain. But I don't blame Bryan. He rushed to fetch me and I really appreciate that.
Honestly, I just hate the way Ross reacted to me. Why can't she just be less blur and more responsible in whatever she does? It's so fucking annoying I tell you. So what her mom does me a favour of fetching me back home after tuition (only on Thursdays)? It's just a day and her mom was the one who volunteered to fetch me. I did not request and she told me that she can fetch me home every Thursday and therefore, I don't need to worry about my transportation. Ross acted like she has done nothing wrong. I was so pissed.. And I didn't want to answer her back at that moment because I sorta feel indebted to her mom so I'm not doing anything to her.
Sigh. What a day to end with - a fucking irresponsible person who abandoned me and made me drenched in rain.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
One thought, thousand words
I came up with this blog not just because for the sake of publicity, but rather for the sake of voicing my stories instead. Here I am, typing some kind of weird things into my cynical blog. What am I suppose to do actually? Life's pretty hectic actually, despite being in the stupid Science Stream. And my life's getting worse because of SPM which is a major examination which I am sitting for this year. Stupid it may seem, but it means the whole world to me! Fail my SPM.. and I would be so dead! I don't want to have dire results! My parents would most probably chop me into 500 pieces if I were to fail a single subject. And of course, I do not want it to happen. Striving real hard to cope, though it may seem impossible, but I really do hope that my efforts would pay off later. Having an elder sibling totally sucks. Mainly because my parents compare me with Bryan with almost everything. Studies, attitude wise and also character wise. I'm not Bryan, I have my own personality, but my parents are like 'moulding' me to be someone like my brother - which I do not want to obviously! I want to be me. I don't want to be someone else! And some of you may say that you get hand-me-downs if you have an elder sibling but thank God, this doesn't apply to me. I don't know why and of course, I'm pretty thankful cause I don't like to wear other people's stuffs. It feels... uncomfortable.
Talking about school. My school is infested with people from all walks of life. You name it - bitchy ones, nerdy ones, arrogant ones and the list goes on and on. I wished I was in the same school with my primary school friend. I told my mom about it, but she doesn't seem to take heed of what I'm trying to say. I came from a Chinese primary government school, which is widely known was SKJC Chung Kwok. (which is the same as my cousin brother, Joel who is currently studying in Sri KL) Sooner or later, all good things must come to an end. We were going on our own separate ways. Joel went to SMK Kepong Baru (he was transferred to Sri KL soon because of distance problems), Katherina, Shu Qian, Jian Wei, Elizabeth, Kar Weng, Lik Kai and Yi Sheng went to a secondary school in Seafield while Wan Yin and May Zi went to a school in somewhere in USJ. It's a suprise to know that they came from different parts of KL. And me......? I went to a Sri Cempaka. Alone. I was depressed at first, because I had nobody to accompany me and I couldn't get used to the new environment. But after a couple of months, I made some new friends in my class and that eased my loneliness a bit, although I still miss me CK friends badly. So.. I've been in this school for 4 golden years and I still do miss my CK friends. We still meet each other, but only once in a blue moon because we are all busy with our own activities and classes. But I'm thankful that I still have some crazy friends in this school. They're nice people!
There are some bad things too, unfortunately. Some people are often green of envy. I do not know what and why would they do such things. But, some girls do pretend to be friends with me first, then, they start to backstab me and they start bitching about me to the whole word. Gossips... never ends. I guess that's my life. But I don't care. It's my life and it's up to them to do whatever they want as long they don't hurt my friends and my loved ones. I trust them. And I love them deeply. Wherever you go, there will be always people who are unhappy with your actions. But nevermind. Life's like that. I just want to enjoy my high school life. They can go around telling lies about me, but I will not do anything to them. I couldn't care much. My reputation is important, but my studies are more important because it decides the way I take in the future. And I don't want it to be ruined and I do not want to be bothered by those crappy incidents. I can't stop it from happening. So.. I should just leave those things aside and concentrate more on my studies.
Last year, during open day, Mrs Lim told my parents saying that I fared poorly in my exams. I knew it, and I admit it. Why? Because I played throughout the year. I did not even bother about my studies. What I did in school was just lazing around during lessons, finding a chance to skip classes and I wouldn't even bother to complete my homework and assignments. I would just copy my friend's answers. Hehe. I know I still do that. =P Can't help it. Ok, back to my exams. I just.. sat for the exams. And.. flunked it. My results were really awful. I got a B3 for BM (holy crap, it was so damn near to an A. Just a couple more marks! So close!). I got A1 for English, thankfully. I got A2 for Mathematics, but yet my teacher wasn't really satisfied with it cos she expected me to score an A1. I got a C5 for Additional Mathematics. It was fricking hard, well, cause I didn't study. I should be grateful that I did not fail. And an A2 for Chemistry (Phewwww. Thank God. Or esle Mrs Kavita would slit my neck). And I got B3(s) for Physics, Moral and Biology. Not bad, but my teacher and parents aren't happy about it. And I got a C5 for my History cause I was totally blank about the essay question. And EST? Thankfully, I got an A1. So, in total I got 2 A1(s), 2 A2(s), 4 B3(s) and 2 C5(s). If this is the results for my SPM, I would have gone crazy already. And of course, my parents started nagging when they got my report book. 'Why can't you just focus on your studies instead of sticking to the computer all day long?' and 'You'd better work hard for your SPM or your computer and handphone will be confiscated." Saddening, yeah. Well, I hope my SPM results would be a straight A1(s)! Touch wood! I don't want history to happen again! It's bitter...!
Recently my brother Bryan had a cocktail-cum-birthday party at the pool side at the backyard of our house. He invited like, uh, the whole world to our house. His college mates, school friends and cousins were invited. They blasted the amplifier to the loudest. It was so fricking annoying I tell you. Yeah, I can't stand noise. And one thing, I couldn't stand those stupid people without common sense who littered everywhere. Look, I hate people who litter. I can't stand their stupid slefish act. Why is it so hard to throw the rubbish into a rubbish bin which is provided at every angle? Even if you are lazy, this is not your house, it is ours and you should know your manners, right? Throw the rubbish in the bin, please! Even kids know what to do. I was so fricking annoyed because it's like 75% of his friends littered everywhere. I could see rubbish everywhere on the grass, near the poolside and even at the small little pondok. I told Bryan about it but he didn't even cared about it. He just told me to just leave things alone as this is his party and not mine. Like, what? Yeah, it's your party but it's our school Which is yours + mine. I am particular about cleanliness! Is it so hard to speak up and tell your friends not to litter? It will not offend your friends lah. Come on. And I tell you, my dad spent a fortune on Bryan's 19th birthday because I could see so many boxes of bottles of wines and cocktails in the wine room which has a rather lame sign 'ONLY FOR BRYAN'S PARTY. DO NOT TAKE IT WITHOUT PERMISSION'. And dad bought a new electric guitar for Bryan. I bought (more like forced =P) a Giorgio Armani perfume for him! He wanted that, so yeah, I granted his wish. Look Bryan, I love you ya know? I even bought your favourite perfume. I'm such a good sister so be good to me. Mum bought a VAIO laptop for him, a black one. WOOOOTS~ Aaron bought a Swatch watch for him. Bryan is is soooooo fricking lucky! Nevermind. My time will come soon. Huahua~
Wow, I think I typed a 10000 words already. I better go finish my homework first before mum turns on her nagging machine =P. So bye earthlings!
Talking about school. My school is infested with people from all walks of life. You name it - bitchy ones, nerdy ones, arrogant ones and the list goes on and on. I wished I was in the same school with my primary school friend. I told my mom about it, but she doesn't seem to take heed of what I'm trying to say. I came from a Chinese primary government school, which is widely known was SKJC Chung Kwok. (which is the same as my cousin brother, Joel who is currently studying in Sri KL) Sooner or later, all good things must come to an end. We were going on our own separate ways. Joel went to SMK Kepong Baru (he was transferred to Sri KL soon because of distance problems), Katherina, Shu Qian, Jian Wei, Elizabeth, Kar Weng, Lik Kai and Yi Sheng went to a secondary school in Seafield while Wan Yin and May Zi went to a school in somewhere in USJ. It's a suprise to know that they came from different parts of KL. And me......? I went to a Sri Cempaka. Alone. I was depressed at first, because I had nobody to accompany me and I couldn't get used to the new environment. But after a couple of months, I made some new friends in my class and that eased my loneliness a bit, although I still miss me CK friends badly. So.. I've been in this school for 4 golden years and I still do miss my CK friends. We still meet each other, but only once in a blue moon because we are all busy with our own activities and classes. But I'm thankful that I still have some crazy friends in this school. They're nice people!
There are some bad things too, unfortunately. Some people are often green of envy. I do not know what and why would they do such things. But, some girls do pretend to be friends with me first, then, they start to backstab me and they start bitching about me to the whole word. Gossips... never ends. I guess that's my life. But I don't care. It's my life and it's up to them to do whatever they want as long they don't hurt my friends and my loved ones. I trust them. And I love them deeply. Wherever you go, there will be always people who are unhappy with your actions. But nevermind. Life's like that. I just want to enjoy my high school life. They can go around telling lies about me, but I will not do anything to them. I couldn't care much. My reputation is important, but my studies are more important because it decides the way I take in the future. And I don't want it to be ruined and I do not want to be bothered by those crappy incidents. I can't stop it from happening. So.. I should just leave those things aside and concentrate more on my studies.
Last year, during open day, Mrs Lim told my parents saying that I fared poorly in my exams. I knew it, and I admit it. Why? Because I played throughout the year. I did not even bother about my studies. What I did in school was just lazing around during lessons, finding a chance to skip classes and I wouldn't even bother to complete my homework and assignments. I would just copy my friend's answers. Hehe. I know I still do that. =P Can't help it. Ok, back to my exams. I just.. sat for the exams. And.. flunked it. My results were really awful. I got a B3 for BM (holy crap, it was so damn near to an A. Just a couple more marks! So close!). I got A1 for English, thankfully. I got A2 for Mathematics, but yet my teacher wasn't really satisfied with it cos she expected me to score an A1. I got a C5 for Additional Mathematics. It was fricking hard, well, cause I didn't study. I should be grateful that I did not fail. And an A2 for Chemistry (Phewwww. Thank God. Or esle Mrs Kavita would slit my neck). And I got B3(s) for Physics, Moral and Biology. Not bad, but my teacher and parents aren't happy about it. And I got a C5 for my History cause I was totally blank about the essay question. And EST? Thankfully, I got an A1. So, in total I got 2 A1(s), 2 A2(s), 4 B3(s) and 2 C5(s). If this is the results for my SPM, I would have gone crazy already. And of course, my parents started nagging when they got my report book. 'Why can't you just focus on your studies instead of sticking to the computer all day long?' and 'You'd better work hard for your SPM or your computer and handphone will be confiscated." Saddening, yeah. Well, I hope my SPM results would be a straight A1(s)! Touch wood! I don't want history to happen again! It's bitter...!
Recently my brother Bryan had a cocktail-cum-birthday party at the pool side at the backyard of our house. He invited like, uh, the whole world to our house. His college mates, school friends and cousins were invited. They blasted the amplifier to the loudest. It was so fricking annoying I tell you. Yeah, I can't stand noise. And one thing, I couldn't stand those stupid people without common sense who littered everywhere. Look, I hate people who litter. I can't stand their stupid slefish act. Why is it so hard to throw the rubbish into a rubbish bin which is provided at every angle? Even if you are lazy, this is not your house, it is ours and you should know your manners, right? Throw the rubbish in the bin, please! Even kids know what to do. I was so fricking annoyed because it's like 75% of his friends littered everywhere. I could see rubbish everywhere on the grass, near the poolside and even at the small little pondok. I told Bryan about it but he didn't even cared about it. He just told me to just leave things alone as this is his party and not mine. Like, what? Yeah, it's your party but it's our school Which is yours + mine. I am particular about cleanliness! Is it so hard to speak up and tell your friends not to litter? It will not offend your friends lah. Come on. And I tell you, my dad spent a fortune on Bryan's 19th birthday because I could see so many boxes of bottles of wines and cocktails in the wine room which has a rather lame sign 'ONLY FOR BRYAN'S PARTY. DO NOT TAKE IT WITHOUT PERMISSION'. And dad bought a new electric guitar for Bryan. I bought (more like forced =P) a Giorgio Armani perfume for him! He wanted that, so yeah, I granted his wish. Look Bryan, I love you ya know? I even bought your favourite perfume. I'm such a good sister so be good to me. Mum bought a VAIO laptop for him, a black one. WOOOOTS~ Aaron bought a Swatch watch for him. Bryan is is soooooo fricking lucky! Nevermind. My time will come soon. Huahua~
Wow, I think I typed a 10000 words already. I better go finish my homework first before mum turns on her nagging machine =P. So bye earthlings!
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