My head is throbbing right now as if there's a bulldozer inside, and I feel so lethargic, fatigue and dehydrated.

I had a bad hangover this morning. Came home at 2am, dropped dead on the bed without removing my makeup, I know, its a sin, but then again, whatever saje lahh. Woke up, had a terrible headache and it was such a dread to get the hell out of the bed. Quickly took a cup of ginger tea, as much I hate it I forced myself to gulp everything down, and ginger is the BOMB YO. It does wonders. Feeling much better, but the headache won't seem to subside.

I went out for 19 hours yesterday, YO. Headed to Will's place at 8am to have breakfast, then off we headed to KLCC to loiter, okay, probably not loiter, but to err, hang out. KLCC was loaded with so many people, but what to do lah, its the holiday season, so its pretty ordinary to see large crowds in KLCC. And you know, it is IMPOSSIBLE (for me la) to be empty handed in a mall. Those blingies (not diamonds) catch my eye, as if they exude some kind of light that makes my eyes glisten and sparkle, baby. And so, I got myself two stuff. Two only lah, so don't grumble grumble all.

*JENG JENG JENG*

Escada Moon Sparkle. The packaging is so colourful and pleasing to the eye, and the bottle is just too pretty lah. Tak sampai hati nak buang the bottle lah, so I will definitely keep it :D

And this lipgloss la. Nothing much actually, haha, I know I take too many pictures, but its fun. Can't deny that, though it can be really troublesome to pluck in the cables in this obsolete gadget of mine.

Joanna called Will whether he wanted to hang out tonight, so he agreed la. I wasn't that thickfaced to tag along like Ella alright, Joanna sms-ed me too okay, so I had an invitation, mind you, people. No misunderstandings please :) Rushed back home at 7.30pm to get ready, as I had only 1 hour to dress up. That babi lah, ish. One hour to dress up, where can?! Shower, blow hair, pick dress, shoes, accesories, bag, spray perfume, put makeup, where got time? o.O But anyhow I managed to do it :)

Had a bit of Absolut Vodka and then I curi some sip from some people's gin and tonic. The night was okay lar, but I don't know why I got intoxicated, maybe slightly.

Maybe the Vodka was too good la, kept drinking until lost count of how much I drank, plus with other drinks, hahaha. Then, headed back home, and slept because I felt so heavy.

Parents are out at the moment, and I'm left alone (again) with Aaron, and he's absofuckingly pissing the shit out of me everytime I talk to him. I don't give a fuck about him seriously, so what if I'm being cold to him? He thinks he's right all the time because whenever we talk, he would be the first one to spark a quarrel and he places the blame on me although he is in the wrong. Fucked up, I tell you la. I don't care about it anymore. His birthday is around the corner, and I am not spending a single cent on him, because since he's so conceited, superficial and self-centered, I choose not to interfere with his oh-so-fabulous life.

I'm just being patient, keeping my cool not to even yell at him or tell him to fuck off for the rest of my life. So, I choose to ignore him. IGNORE. Whatever.

PS: There will be classes every day for next week, which means, no rest, like WTF.

I'm free today, no college, woohoo!

It's more like I ponteng-ed college. Malas nak layan la if I kena barred. WHATEVER SAJE LAH!

*flings hair*

I took that picture sometime ago, when I went shopping with my mom. And yeah, that was basically the highlight of the year 2006, and this golden chance only comes once annually. Most of the stuff there are my mom's, as I'm just a little too young for these major fashion labels. But I can't deny that err, some of the stuff there are mine. It has been 2 years and I am still keeping it safe and sound.

I'm so proud of myself.
I'm indeed the best damn thing :D

SYIOK SENDIRI BETULLLLL XD I ciplak from Daniella wut. Yesterday we headed to OU right after college. I finally bought everything at one go, malas lah to pergi balik, so just buy everything saje lahhhh. Errrhhh, those are excuses just to make sound innocent lar. HAHAHHA.

That babi took this. Realized that bag is err, quite empty compared to Ella's, but then, who keeps their entire makeup bag, pencil case, and somemore PA CHE (umbrella) inside their handbag lah? Might as well bring a luggage bag. HHAHAHAHAHA. ROFL :p

YES LAH I KNOW I'M VAIN :D I CAN SMELL JEALOUSY FROM YOU LADIES. ESPECIALLY PHYLLIS!!11!! :)

*jumps hysterically*

And it feels like shit, tonight.

Yes, I'm plagiarizing Daughtry's song. Not exactly, but then, whatever.

Exams are over, and I'm totally elated about it cos its like I'm free from all sufferings but this is just temporary, cos the serious one is on October. Gotta work my ass off.

I thought yesterday was going to be fun, but it turned to be not, and I'm still ranting about it cos I'm oh-so-fuckingly-pissed. I waited for 2 hours for a damn cab, and none came to my aid. Well, there were some, but some didn't want to take me because apparently they were not free. Like, what, are you rushing your grandmother's cousin's greatson's sister in law's grandaunt's twin sister to Singapore? It's like having 400 tons of gold in front of eyes and yet you refuse it and you opted for the 400 tons of grass instead.

Our plans didn't materialize and I was just mad. Mad because I walked 1000kms and sweated like I was in the Zahara desert, looking for a damn cab just to get to that place, and now what, you're telling me that its cancelled?

I thought to myself, heck no, this cannot be happening, I laboured like a bull and I'm not getting rewarded. Don't tell me sorry, cos I know you're not. I thought I could at least have a sip of Tequila, but I ended up rotting at Starbucks.

MERCY, WHY WON'T YOU RELEASE ME?

AH SHUT UP.

Not to mention that there are some acquaintances of mine who happen to be such giler babi(s), annoying me to the edge. Cheeseburgers.

I feel like a mannequin. Whatever it means.

8 months.

I've not blogged for 8 months. WTF.

Scold me or hit me, I don't mind. Well, of course the latter is a lie. I don't want to be beaten up like a mashed potato.

I got deeper. It wasn't my intention to be in this situation, at all. Day by day, I realised that I'm going deeper and deeper. I've tried countless times to put this to an end, initially I thought that I was over and done with it, but I realised that I stepped much deeper into this situation, subconsciously. I never knew what happened, and since I'm at this stage, I guess its tough to escape from this entire situation.

It all seemed that it happened very abruptly and history seemed to be repeating itself. The whole cycle repeats again, and it becomes a mundanity, where I'm starting to feel a bit sick and tired. I conceal everything, trying not to leave a trace, because I don't want you to figure out the puzzle. But, hey, its impossible to hide everything, because the more you want to hide, the more obvious it becomes. I am certainly not a puzzle for you to solve, and I don't want you to know. Not at all.

I caught myself fixing my eyes on you, checking on you instantly, worried about your welfare, just everything. Rumours about you got me thinking, it gave a tinge of jealousy. I was angry. Angry because you were so committed, and yet I was nothing but a passerby. I was afraid that you are actually sabotaging every effort, and thus, jeopardizing everything. Perhaps you can say that I'm obsessive, and insecure.

I felt glad, for once, when you decided to take a break from, everything. I was perplexed, when you had a mental breakdown, but what could I do? I could only watch helplessly because I didn't want to make it obvious. At the same time, I felt anger burning in me. For once, why can't you just let go everything? Why are you dedicating half of your life to this, when you're not even given credit for what you've done?

And it was merely because, the hardest part wasn't letting go, not taking part.

It is undeniable that you have a special bond with them. You're dedicated, committed and you're going back to the starting point once again. Regret, you regretted taking that path, and after walking for a distance, you can no longer bear it anymore and therefore you run back to your starting point. I think you were being stupid, or perhaps, you're just different from me. You have the chance, you can seize every opportunity in your hands, while I do not.

Because, I simply do not have it within my hands. Mixed feelings, I'm frustrated, angry, helpless, emotionally tired, I feel that you're stupid, I pity you, and I found myself, liking you. Ironically, this is the second time, at the first time, I felt bliss, because I believed that you felt the same way as I did. Chatting about the good times till the wee hours of the morning, sharing our past hurt and regrets, cheering each other up, and being ourselves.

That is a memory to be missed.

I know that the world is always on the move, constantly changing, and I can't just expect things to go my way.

I realize that you've changed as well, perhaps, you're becoming nothing but a stranger to me. Memories are hurtful, I know that, but it feels that I'll never see you again.

Reviving the good memories? I don't dare to speak, or even move, because all has changed, and I am not ready to adapt to this new phase yet.

Maybe I should just leave things alone, simply because I want my memories to be remained that way, all to sweet to be remembered.