As usual, this place is the norm of lashing out my dissatisfaction and all that shit that has been going in my life. I know, it is so damn fucking pathetic. I even disgust myself.

Even yesterday, I felt like a fucking whore because of that 5 seconds. And today, I felt literally like a piece of crap because I have to act as if nothing's happened.

I feel disgusted of myself. I think I've reached the lowest level of humanity, sad to say.

This feeling has to fucking go away before it overtakes my mind. DIUUUUUUUUUUU