I usually keep silent when I'm feeling distressed, or when sorrow overwhelms me. Even a tad of it could linger all day long, leaving me feeling all so ho-hum. I believe that, I'm just going through another hurdle, that everyone in the world has possibly gone through this before. I have mixed feelings inside me, they're all mixed into something that I cannot sort it out myself.

It's all tangled up in me.

Too complicated.

I want to cuss everything out, and yet I want to just wrap myself up in my blanket and cry. I can't help but feel hopeless, and the only alternative to curb this to just stop and stare?

I feel troubled. Not because of love or studies (it's partly because of that I admit).

But, the little things. It may not seem significant, but yet, the little things are hurting me in a way, that I could only stop and stare. I'm sorry if this post is nothing but depressed scribblings of a 17 year old schoolgirl who's battling with her inner self.

There isn't much time left, and I don't know where I am heading to because it seems that I have not moved at all. Not even an inch. I question myself, countless times, am I at the end of the race or perhaps I am being delusional about it all along and I only got to realize that I am still at the starting? It hurts me to know, and I don't seem to know, at all.

Life crashes down on you and gives you a splash of acid on your face. Ouch. When you are confused, lost and unconfident, everything seems to crash down on you on that very split second. I try, to understand the root of all the happenings, and I am wondering, what, how, where, when. I cry, of course, when I feel that I've had enough of life, but I still choose to trust myself again, that my tears will dry on its own.

Seriously.. I don't know whether I can keep running. At this moment, I'm drained out, mentally and physically. I need the strength to continue this. I can't play along, anymore. All I need is something to quench my thirst, and recharge my strength.

Yeah, perhaps an isotonic drink would do, but then again, I need an oasis. Badly.