I've betrayed you once again. I failed to keep my promise, and I know, that I would have to pay for it someday. I wasn't oblivious to the whole thing, but I couldn't help myself from these sins and desires. I didn't feel sorry at all, honestly, though I know that what goes around comes around. I guess you existence at this moment provokes sparks of irritation inside of me.

Perhaps I was jealous of you.

Perhaps I hated you.

You don't know it.. because you don't feel it, and I really do hope that it'll remain like this forever, because I've finally come to 4 realizations;

1. This relationship wasn't even supposed to be started in the first place.
2. Nothing lasts forever.
3. Intimacy between humans are temporal.
4. I gave in more than I was supposed to.

I'll wish you well, but deep down in my heart, its a whole different story.